I get worried recently that because I don't come out I'm going to drift from everyone. It's only just hit me properly and when I'm all alone and not preoccupied those sort of thoughts take over and it makes me anxious. I'm missing a lot at the moment and don't make enough effort to hold up the close friendships I have with people so I constantly feel like I'm drifting. I see the personal jokes and funny conversations everyone is having but I'm not as much involved as I used to be. I'll stop moping about it now and do something.
I'm going to start making a much bigger effort with all of my friends and not let friendships lag, because that is when a friendship ends. I hope everyone looks forward to me talking to them more ;)